Feelings of Overwhelm & Anxiety

It is hard to put into words how I am feeling this week. My hormones are all over the place, with my emotions following close behind. I am feeling just wrong, breathless and dizzy, a feeling of vertigo comes and goes. I have somewhat less than no patience with anyone or anything and I spend a lot of time trying to decide between pulling the blankets over my head and throwing things at someone else’s head (maybe not so over throwing pots after all). [Read more…]

5.Many Butterflies

Creativity & Butterflies

Another week between posts and I am feeling terribly guilty about it; but it has been a busy and productive week and I am feeling good! I am finally germ free – YAY! I was incredibly well behaved the rest of last week, stayed in bed, rested and drank loads of water, made very few trips out of the house, took it slow and only went places I would be able to relax and be safe and warm. [Read more…]


Throwing Pots & Other Concerns

I am finally beginning to feel better! How exciting is that? My head is full of cobwebs and clear lines of thought elude me, and I am still coughing, but only at night now. I am lucky enough to work from home and make my own hours, so I just sleep later in the morning to make up for broken sleep the night before. I wonder why that is… that I cough all night and cannot sleep, but the second the day starts I can curl up and sleep an extra 3 uninterrupted hours. Not that I am complaining – I am firmly enforcing the “sleep while I can” rule. I am also still operating from bed for today. [Read more…]


Sick & Tired of Being Sick & Tired!

I know it has been too long between posts and this one will probably be largely unsatisfying too. I am still sick. I went to the doctor as mentioned last week and was greatly relieved that although my glands were swollen, there was no fever and so no need for antibiotics at that point. I had an upper respiratory tract infection, very inflamed throat and lots of congestion, but Doctor said if I got into bed and stayed there, took panado for the pain and drank loads of fluids and made sure my temperature stayed low and it stays out of my chest – no antibiotics. [Read more…]


The Lady in the Tent

I have briefly mentioned in previous posts that I am carrying “big”. I am rather more like a 6 month pregnant fairy than the reality of 3 and a half months. The tears every time I read online how readers should not feel badly for not showing yet and how normal it is (every single week), have become quite traumatic.
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Trimester Two

Pregnancy has highlighted the fact that I hide when I am scared, I have done since I was young. My method of choice is to become completely engrossed in books or series or general busy-work, but essentially I put off facing whatever it is until I can’t anymore. I have always said this is how I process things, and maybe it is, because I am not a person who likes to react in the moment and I can eventually rationalise myself into re-engaging with the world and that which has sent me running. It has become more obvious of late as it seems every day of pregnancy brings some new fear along with it and my method of hiding appears to be avoiding writing about whatever I am feeling so as not to “make it real” until I have a handle on things.  [Read more…]

Mickey Mouse Ears

Mickey Mouse Ear Knees

Since I was very little I have suffered from spontaneously dislocating kneecaps. Essentially if I put my foot down the wrong way or slip, my kneecap slips to the side of my leg and then pops back in causing enough pain that, as I have gotten older and my joints less flexible, I pass out, which is less than ideal particularly when the last two occasions it happened I was crossing roads. [Read more…]


Coming along nicely…

Things are definitely coming along nicely… I have started my research for the resources page, have had the Paint version of my logo (designed by me) polished up by a graphic designer on the Internet, have had hubby put together a forum, have set up my Facebook and Twitter accounts, have invited everyone to check it all out, have posted a few blogs and even taught myself how to create and install widgets and plugins on the website; but then there are days like today where I look at something simple like creating the first forum category and it all just seems impossible. [Read more…]