2 years ago on the 20th of July I wrote my first post here. I had the vision and the passion, but not the time or the energy, and I had no idea where to start. I tried for a while but after 3 months I admitted defeat, it was all too much for me, so I focused on the writing that I loved and growing my baby and my own business.
Do you know what I am doing next week? Nothing! Yes, you heard me right. I am giving myself “leave”. No deadlines, no stress, a massage, coffees, lunches, reading, working on my own little projects – ME time.
Last Friday another child intentionally hurt my baby girl for the first time; and a part of my heart just shattered as her face went from confusion to shock to pain and then crumpled as she fell back crying. I get an aching throb in my chest and my throat closes even remembering it and I want to wrap myself around her and never let her go. I started writing this post the evening it happened, but I kept crying. It’s taken me over a week to be able to finish it.
There are two pieces of advice that I would consider the best advice I ever received; and both can only really apply to first time moms. [Read more…]
So, where were we… arriving back in our room and being set up with press-button morphine. Basically every time you start feeling sore, you press the button. I think there is a 10 minute (or so) window between when it will produce the goods. On top of that, every 4 hours a nurse brings you more pills and adds things to the IV. The pain management from the medication side is excellent when you are in the hospital. The rest of my c-section recovery was difficult on every level. [Read more…]
And finally here it is, at least part one is, although I am insanely tired and it has taken weeks to get it all down and so I am sure the quality of the writing may be suffering. The focus of this post is the c-section itself (I’ll be posting the recovery part separately) so let’s take it from the top. [Read more…]
Last night I experienced my baby’s first fever; I’m really looking forward to when I experience a positive first. The first smile, the first laugh, the first time she sleeps through the night, even the first tooth though it may require some pain & tears will have a visible rewarding result; all my angel’s firsts thus far have been suffering without reward. [Read more…]